As you guys know I live for chaos and fighting. I do it with everyone and anything I run into for a few years now. Doesn't matter what it was I was going to get in on it one way or another. Then the other night when I was drunk as you guys saw the post I totally ripped my ex apart everything I had been holding in for 7 years I laid right at her fucking feet. From the guys suicide all the way too my issues with her mother and her acting like a whore. It was to say the least brutal. I noticed yesterday that I didn't get mad when my wife did something that annoys the shit out of me I just shrugged it off. Well today I was in a good mood which is even odder because most of the time I brood. I actually talked to people while I was smoking in the smoking area that I have ignored for 5 years +. Then the big one came I was at Krogers waiting to get a ribeye for dinner and this guy was being a complete asshole to the kid behind the counter. The kid looked like he was just there to take someones place as he didn't even know how to cut meat. Anyway the customer was being a complete dick. I just sat and waited for the kid to be done with him so I could get my shit and go. So the kid went to the back and the guy started to bitch at me. At this point this is were I would have lashed into the guy for being a complete cock to the kid and pretty much ripped him a new one. I just as calm as I could be told the guy. It's none of my business I just want to get my dinner and go so please don't speak to me about I can't help you. I mean that isn't me at all. I was smiling the whole time I don't smile and I noticed this warm feeling in my chest I havn't felt in years. Worst yet I whistled the rest of my time in the store and on the way home.... Barry did I finally get rid of all the rage I had bottled up because of my ex and I'm done being mad? Is that all it took?
i think the key, too, is that you weren't afraid to hurt back. and i don't mean that in an ugly way. i can't tell you how many things i have to say but don't want to hurt the other person. one thing that a good friend once told me is that once your feelings/fears/the truth is out there, it's no longer eating you alive. bravery is admirable. even if it takes a nudge.
There is a reason that people stand in line to be on the Jerry Springer show Grim. There is a reason.
Really Grim, what do you think that "Counseling" is? Mostly it's helping people uncork their anger, and then learn ways to think differently so that it doesn't get bottled back inside. A therapist helps people go to the root of what they are really angry about. Most people don't really know.
......says the sultry woman that gets $80.00 an hour for smearing cheap lotion on people. . . . . . . . . :biggrin: I'll pay for that I bet. (but you asked for it)
She makes it herself. Buys 5 gallon jugs of cheap hand cream, rebottles it in these tiny little bottles, and sells it as "Holy Holistic Hand Salve of Earth Godess Humpsalotta " or something like that.
Sorry dear. It won't happen again. loads towels in the washer, and slinks back to washing dishes.....
