Are you wasting your life?

I have been really pissed off at the world lately, being a miserable bitch and taking it out on all the people i love most.
Finally figured out what my problem is and it's looking at me whenever i drag my arse out of bed and into the bathroom.A 31 year old woman looking back at me and it has been scaring the shit out of me.31 years gone just like that.What have done with it?i hold my hands up and say i have contributed absolutly fuck all to the world, helped absolutly no-one and generaly wasted a large part of my short time on this earth.
So i've decided i need to do something about, stop putting of all the stuff i want to do.I always think i can do later but later is getting less and less.SO i'm gonna make a list of things i wanna do and gonna fuckin do them.
Are you in a job you hate or with someone you hate or just want to get away from crap.Stop putting it off and do it.
And it is as easy or as hard as you make it.

 

so what if you're at a crossroads in your life.. you know what you want to do but that isn't an option... you have two options.. but one is a step back that will be actually a return to a step forward.. and the other is to carry on forward in a path that was a step back but was a route forward before an option closed???

 

what's the way forward?

 

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="verdana">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by unlimited time:
I have been really pissed off at the world lately, being a miserable bitch and taking it out on all the people i love most.
Finally figured out what my problem is and it's looking at me whenever i drag my arse out of bed and into the bathroom.A 31 year old woman looking back at me and it has been scaring the shit out of me.31 years gone just like that.What have done with it?i hold my hands up and say i have contributed absolutly fuck all to the world, helped absolutly no-one and generaly wasted a large part of my short time on this earth.
So i've decided i need to do something about, stop putting of all the stuff i want to do.I always think i can do later but later is getting less and less.SO i'm gonna make a list of things i wanna do and gonna fuckin do them.
Are you in a job you hate or with someone you hate or just want to get away from crap.Stop putting it off and do it.
And it is as easy or as hard as you make it.<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>

If this helps, here is my phone number:

(Add in the USA country code) 610.259.4106


And that goes for any of you other fuckwads out there.

 

Only you can make that decision, you got to think about what you really want and which choice will make you the happiest and bring you most satifation.If you still can't decide flip a coin and let fate decide.

 

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="verdana">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by Ulfur Engil:
If this helps, here is my phone number:

(Add in the USA country code) 610.259.4106


And that goes for any of you other fuckwads out there. <HR></BLOCKQUOTE>

Thankyou if i ever need to talk i'll call.

 

it wasn't really a question ut.. just helps to write it down xx

 

By all means...call me if you even don't need to talk.

 

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="verdana">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by PimpDaddy:
it wasn't really a question ut.. just helps to write it down xx<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>
Sorry sweetie i you needed advice from a depressed weirdo.

 

*thought

 

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="verdana">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by Ulfur Engil:
By all means...call me if you even don't need to talk. <HR></BLOCKQUOTE>

I will , one of these days you'll be woken up by a drunk english lady babberling crap down the phone.

 

Well, I'm wasting my life, if that makes you feel any better.

 

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="verdana">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by unlimited time:

it was a crap answer anyway...

 

Rofl..i can always count on you to make me laugh ..fucker i wanted to wallow in my own selfpity.

 

well Miss UT, i can understand your grief. due to a lot of circumstances i couldnt control i did not get a college degree until last year and i'm 30. i have a 2 year A.A. along with all the prereq's i needed to start the Registered Nurse program which is another 2 years. i started it this January and dropped out about 2 weeks ago. after years of planning i fucking changed my mind and realized that it was not what i wanted to do with my life. i am pretty fucked up right now too, trying to decide. i could stay in US and go back to school or go to France and do lord knows what with Frenchy- in a time when the US and France fucking hate each other. joy. really, i would rather be a rock star. but i figure i should be more realistic. hence- the college track. maybe you could make a list of pro's and con's for yourself and investigate which of those things you'd like and be good at then choose and go for it full force. i dont really know much about your personal life but you are obviously bright and artistic. i dont know if you think you must contribute to society in order to feel whole, or fulfilled. i dont. i just want to make a happy life for myself. i liked the science part of nursing, but the helping whiny, smelly sick people would grow old quick. anyway, i'd be interested in knowing what kind of ideas you are tossing around. bon chance, Rat

 

I've decided it about time i got myself trained up for work.So i'll guess i'll be off to college in september.Got a few months till then to do fuck all.
Few other things need sorting out in my life but 1 thing at a time.

 

Here's a piece of advice for nothing: Take the biggest risk you can possibly manage.

Anything else is selling yourself short, and you'll probably regret it or at least wonder "what if ...?"

Here endeth the "lesson".

 

I'm completely fucked off as well and I feel my life is in a rut. No idea what to do about it though, getting a better job (i.e. one which makes me at least 50% happy) would probably be a first step.

Sometimes I get moments where I'm as happy as Larry, usually after a healthy intake of Narc's and then I get pissed off realising that half the time my 'good' mood is artificial.

A Catch 22 situation if there ever was one.

I have also decided as from this week to completely give up all drugs until I come back from the States, which will be 3 weeks, so watch this space. I'll drink more to compensate.

Uncle Dubya might be a bit crabby in the interim.

UT girl, worry not we all go through these 'phases' where we feel we've achieved little or nothing of any value...however life isn't a blueprint, there is no wrong way or right way, just your way.

Besides I'm sure if you asked your friends and family what they thought and felt about you, you might be mildly surprised to learn how valued you are.

We all get there in the end. Peace out.

 

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="verdana">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by unlimited time:
Rofl..i can always count on you to make me laugh ..fucker i wanted to wallow in my own selfpity. <HR></BLOCKQUOTE>

s'what friends are for right?... anyway to be honest watching you wallow was turning my fucking stomach