Remember last time it was a therapist. I think this time I was diagnosed with dysthymia and anxiety... last time it was cyclothymia. I was told to double the dose of the antidepressant that made me want to die and I am very hestitant to do this. I guess the higher the dosage, the less side effects you experience. I'm still sketchy about it. And I was switched from Ativan to Klonopin. I'm sad because I think the Ativan does a good job. I was told to continue taking Ambien. I have been on this stuff for years. I like it, but it doesn't even work for me much anymore. I didn't think people were supposed to take it forever. Any of you people on crazy meds? The place I go is kinda dirty and welfare. I don't like it and I want to burn my clothes when I leave, but I have no other options of crazy people places.
I take Adderall.. but only like every other day. Yeah mental doc offices are kinda weird... I find myself looking at everyone. My doc is also ghetto and gets flirty with me. Last visit- right after Xmas... he said and this is an EXACT quote " I think your husband is a damn fool to to give dat shit up.... ummm " and gave me the up & down sexy look. Last time he talked about all the crazies he sees... always making strange comments - My mom's pot dealer is more professional then my Adderall dealer . I am pretty sure I could play my cards right and land me a HUMAN doctor... if I liked black guys. Might be worth it to drive my dad crazy... oh and the blank RX pads. I think you should just be drug free... have you tried it in the past few years? My X husband (the honky) was on all kinds of shit for years, trying this and that, different combos of pills and getting a new symptom and new labels/diagnosis ... then he just said fuck it... and never took anything- and ended up normal. Shit just imagine what you would do if you lost insurance.... I know all those drugs cost money- the new ones that dont have generic are big money. My Adderall XR 20mg #120 (4 a day) per month runs over $1200 ( I pay $40) ... I actually only take 2 a day- when I feel like it... so I have a huge stock pile for when I do lose insurance.
I have anxiety but I self medicate. Seems to be working pretty well, haven't had a panic attack in about 5 years now.
What do you use? As far as panic attacks go, Atenolol is the best thing in the world for them and it's a 4 dollar RX. I wish I would have got those when I was 19 instead of Xanax. I blame LSD for my panic attacks. I think the first one I had was when I was tripping and I seemed to have suffered from them ever since. I hate them because I never know when they are coming. The last time I had one, I was getting ready for work and getting stuff out of the dresser and BOOM! Feels like someone let all of the air out of my lungs and then my heart starts freaking out. I hate those fucking things. Xanax never touched them. I took 4 at the mall one time when one hit me buying bras at JCPenney and I was still suffering an hour later. Once I got the Atenolol prescription and took it when I had one, I was amazed. It knocked it out in about 10 minutes. I think benzos are good (for me anyway) any time I have to go somewhere. Not for acute anxiety. I need something to get me through the dentist. I have cavities that need filled and I am too chickenshit to do it. I don't want my teeth to rot out of my head, but I can't get my head well enough to go through with it.
I only get pills that are made generic. Ambien is, Ambien CR isn't. My copay is retarded because some brand names are 40 and some are 80. My Crohn's medicine was 80 and it sucked, so I quit taking it. My reflux medicine was 40 and it wasn't working, so I quit taking it too and just buy the generic OTC omeprazole and it doesn't work either. I was paying over 200/mo on medicine with insurance. I can't imagine paying for it w/o. I will have to kill myself when/if I lose insurance because my disease is too expensive w/o it. I don't know how people make it. I have been off of antidepressants for years. I really only take Ativan daily and Ambien about 5 days/week. Everything else, just kind of whenever. My reflux is terrible, so I drink Mylanta, pop pepcid ac a lot but I don't count that. When my Crohn's gets really bad, I will have to go on something then, but I have been trying to just deal with and take probiotics. I don't think they count as drugs. They are only 10 bucks a month and I do think they might help. I (knock on wood) haven't had the squirts in months, but I still have a lot of painful stomach days. I went 7 times yesterday, but they were all solid. I was stressed out and I get the bowels of a pigeon when I am stressed. Jefe started a thread a year or so ago about everything quitting their meds. I think I tried it, but I'm such a spaz, I can't give up the benzos.
