So I leave the house today and am trying to be normal and get something to eat, my bf runs into JJ to get my #6 and we go park down at a local park to eat ('cause I don't eat in restaurants) and I pulled the hard crusty part of my sandwich off (the ends are always crusty) eat my entire sandwich (I can put down the food), look down and see weird blue stuff on the bread. It didn't look like mold... more like paint, paper or plastic, but it has me all freaked out especially after Jefe's story about being slipped LSD. I'm afraid that they baked in it the bread or something. I have been trying to forget about it and went for a walk, but I just got hot and it made my headache worse, so I had to take a shower and go to bed. I'm just going to use this place as my daily diary because I do nothing but lay in bed all day. Oddly, I have lost 9 pounds laying in bed 12 or more hours a day. I think I am going to start a new weight loss program.
They say you lose weight by sleeping more because the more you are up the more you eat. They also say that sleeping alot or not enough is a symptom of depression as well as not eating enough or too much.
I/m not depressed. I AM SICK< Get out of my diary with that negativity. I lived through ymy experience. I even did normal stuff earlier, like house work and love and now I am trying to wind down to go to sleep. My head still hurts but it's not so bad because this kepyboard is making itself a challenge at hand. The Challenger. I used to be obsessed with the Challenger crash. We used to reinact in on the swings at school. I was Judy Resnick because I thought she was pretty. Lemme find the picture that used to hang in my room. Judy was the one on the far right in the back. That was sad. I had challenger earrings and a book. I think the year was 1986. This became a year 18 years later that would come back as an obsession of mine because I am obsessed with finding the killer of a young 22 year old woman.
I'll will tell you the complete story later today. I have to go try to be normal for a while. Again, no depression here, but this 8 day headache is starting to make me really sad.
You should've ordered the #9... That's what I had today. And... No blue shit in it. They did fuck it up and add tomatoes, but that's the price you pay for sending someone else to get your food for you...
I'm a vegetarian. Did you forget? The #6 is all I can get. I had some funky sandwich at Panera Bread yesterday (don't think you guys have one 'round those parts). Mediterranean Veggie or some shit. I like hummus, but their hummus was weird. I can't say that I like Panera Bread. I like the local Bagel place and our local sandwich shop better.
You've been a herbavor that long? I am guessing you probably take a whole load of vitamins? There has to be something to give you the same nutrients as eating the meat of a freshly killed animal. No fish, chicken, pork, or steaks? I am not sure I could live long like that.
No. I can't remember to take vitamins. I get blood work done and it's been good. I haven't had it this year. It's probably terrible. Yeah, I don't eat any kind of meat, but I will eat free-range eggs and drink milk. I tried to be vegan, but I am such a picky eater, it wasn't going to work for me. I also don't wear leather. I'm not one of those asshole vegetarians that do it for the animals yet still wear leather.
Well at least you have conviction. Nothing like a vegetarian with a mink stole on, or is it stool, or stoll? I actually worked in a meat processing plant, cattle, and everyone said, oh you will probably quit eating steak after working there, oh no. Ive seen the freshest filet mignon out there..... I can say this though, the cows today are processed very similar to the buffalos by the indians. Not one thing goes wasted. Right down to power generators that are run on biofuels. So do you not eat meat for the animals, or is it a 'yucky' thing that you just dont like to eat? If we didnt eat cows, and chickens, and fishes, and rabbits, and deers we'd just have to kill them to thin the herds out, cause they would run amok and reproduce uncontrollably. Plus they taste good! Yum.
I understand the need for hunting. I hate nothing more than some asshole who hates hunters and then runs down to McDonalds and scarfs down a cheeseburger. I love animals. I hate PETA, but I love animals. I also saw "Faces of Death" when I was 15 and saw the slaughterhouses and I was done.
The bad thing is, that it is probably just as bad now, as it was when they filmed that. They just put limits on how many times you can 'knock' a cow. Over 6 times is cruel treatment. They have a complete USDA and Animal 'rights' crews on staff. By knock, I mean compressed air shoots an 8" steel rod into the cows head at the base of the neck. Knocks it out, then they do the bad stuff. Its amazing the places computer work will get you into.....
