peiople ion the last couple of minths made me relazie I'm a sooryy sack of shit. for how I made there lifes turn out. oh well nothing a few drinks can't fix. never can make anyone happy huih they can all laugh when I die I still ended up better then they thought i would.. I might cvan't spell or use engrish right. But U still got mroe the 20 bucks in my bank account an d I'm not a useless consoler at some fucking rehab for fucking losers. her mom thought I was a bum fuck her. I make more then her foucking son inlaw in fact I make about 3 times what he makes a yhear. BUt its ok I will leave it all to there son and see who has the laug h last Ben Brown he is getting it all.. they can't take care of him but when I die Ben Brown is getting it all my guns my 401K all if it. Let that bitch live with that I did what her husband can't fucking people always said I would be nothing fuck them look at me now you mother fuckers I cam do anything I want I'm proof a ny one can do whatever. fucking tired of it tired of people tired or it all all I wanted was to make her happy and she wants to throw it in my face fuck her son will be taken care of and she will have to live with that. But she made me relize how much of a misulrable fuc kI am but despite that I keep ticking ' fucking give it all and still people want more... it's ok her son will be fine I can't have kdis but her kid will get everythingf I own and she will have to deal with that. when she is lying on her death bed and looking at him and relizing he wernt to college because of me and he bought his first huse cause of me she can take that to her grave..... I've lived with the pain for 7 years how much can someone twust huh? how much can someone twust it off in you. I'm a complete bastard to everyuon cause of her ALl i wanted was to make peolpe laugh and life easy but fuck jsut fuck
You shouldnt post when you're drunk, but I know (mostly) what you are getting at. People just hurt you, I have been though my own bout of suffering at the hands of another and it put me off wanting to talk to people like this or even go out or function in a society that is almost entirelly selfishly motivated. people are just assholes, its hard to find someone that isn't, I thought I had but it turned out to be a lie, so now I have nobody and nothing. They always take the piss too, with saying something like 'at least you have your health' but I dont even have that. But its not your fault, don't ever blame yourself entirely, yes, it always takes 2 to tango but if your at least performing the right steps, at least you tried and its only because someone else was stepping on your feet.
You know grim, I really enjoyed that post. Not in a sarcastic way, but in a good for you type deal. I can relate to the people thinking you are going to turn out one way, then they realize they wish they turned out half the way you did. I have an associate, used to be a good friend, that it always seemed we were in competition. Prettiest girl, fastest car, best job, whatever. I didnt really care, but he would always make comments about this or that, that made me think that was what he was getting at. My family never had money, we werent 'poor', but anything I really wanted I had to get. First car, first computer, I had to work at BK to pay for my stuff. No big deal, I appreciated it all the more. So he and I play golf from time to time, not so much since the last time, but we are discussing what's been going in on life and what not, and how he was changing firms, he is a civil engineer, and about how great the benefits are and the pay and so on and so forth. Well I had recently started the job I am at now, and he was asking me how it was and so on. So the conversation turns to money, of course, and how he makes 10k more a year than I do. So I said to him, "You're bragging for making 10k more than a High School drop-out? You should be proud of yourself" After that he didnt talk much more the rest of the day. Of course, after working for a couple of years I realized that I needed to get back to school and currently hold 2 degrees and I am 4 classes away from my 3rd. It just ticks me off when someone cant just say, "Hey good for you" it's always, "That's nice, I bet the hours suck". Sorry for the rant, next time I will be drunk before I post anything serious.
i married into a family of multiple degrees and doctorates. i, too, am a HS drop out. it was really interesting when i decided to go to massage school - and my new husband's family just thought i was going to school to become a whore - i ended up being more successful than any of their children and was even able to support the 4 of us while husband was out of work for 2 years. the judgement - they have been so hateful at times to me, treating me like a failure and leading my husband to believe he is too. when someone treats you like a sorry sack of shit you can't help but look fondly at the time when they are on their deathbed and needs something ... we'll see who has the most charachter and who is the 'holiest' then.
People turn out the way they turn out because of themselves, not you. People use things such as a bad childhood as an excuse for raping, commiting crimes, etc. But the fact this that they are weak people and more than likely would have been fucked up anyway. You can't blame others for the way you are and others can't blame you. You are your own person. Granted, certain experiences can fuck you up, but you have to overcome them and get over the bitterness. It will eat you alive and ruin your life if you don't and life is too short to let other people's bullshit affect how you live.
We should make an official drunk post thread. The only problem is if it were buried then a drunk would never find it. They are quite funny to read though.
